The Meaning of Life..
I spent Friday, my 40th birthday, in a complete funk.
I don't feel 40. At all. All sorts of thoughts kept running through my head: do I now have to dress "older"? Is there now a mad race against time to actually achieve something with my life? What about companionship- will I ever find the right person? Am I now disallowed from certain bars & clubs? How do I remain sane?
All that came to a crashing halt today.
A 35 year old friend of mine died. Of a heart attack.
The thing that has most impacted me is that now, he is nothing.
There are no more chances for him- what he managed to leave behind is his legacy, for he went in a hurry. So in a way, yes, there is a race: to try to be the best person one can be. But there must also be time taken to realize that it's all not that serious. We each have no idea when we'll disappear into the ether. So we (I) need to take time to not stress and recognize the happy moments, the fulfilling moments, whilst in those moments.
Rest in Peace, Jiggy.
I don't feel 40. At all. All sorts of thoughts kept running through my head: do I now have to dress "older"? Is there now a mad race against time to actually achieve something with my life? What about companionship- will I ever find the right person? Am I now disallowed from certain bars & clubs? How do I remain sane?
All that came to a crashing halt today.
A 35 year old friend of mine died. Of a heart attack.
The thing that has most impacted me is that now, he is nothing.
There are no more chances for him- what he managed to leave behind is his legacy, for he went in a hurry. So in a way, yes, there is a race: to try to be the best person one can be. But there must also be time taken to realize that it's all not that serious. We each have no idea when we'll disappear into the ether. So we (I) need to take time to not stress and recognize the happy moments, the fulfilling moments, whilst in those moments.
Rest in Peace, Jiggy.
posted by euphoria at 9:29 AM
1 Comments:
Madamoiselle Euphoria,
I wish you a happy birthday. I am certain you always knew: you don't need my or anyone else's permission to dress however you wish! And any club that wouldn't have you is making a BIG mistake. Please accept my condolences for the loss of your friend -- he was lucky to have you, and you him.
May you have a long, long happy life, and, when you are done, many many good friends who will remember you fondly!
Your dedicated reader
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