GOD, I wish

I was in Trinidad!! Quite the last thing I thought I'd hear from me.... but I've been obsessively listening to radio coverage of all the Carnival events, on the 'phone for hours with my mom getting the lowdown from her and just wishing myself there... feeling like I need the incredible release of sun and sky and music and hands raised high... I'm terrified that I won't make it to next year, that my chance was this one... but then again, as my mother says, "You were always a morbid child."